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Before I Go Berserk, Hon: Tumultuous Love Letters, Comfort Women with VD, and 4 Ton Wreckers


Kathy and Christine started a 12-part series of some of their favorite Jack Cavazzi love letters.

Christine posted six of her favorites. Now, here are Kathy's.



Letter 8 in a series of 12.


October 27, 1952


My darling Anne,


Hello hon, I am keeping my promise, it’s Monday night and I am writing you.


This is a very important letter Anne and also a very serious one. This letter, you will see as you read on, will have a great deal to do with our future. There are a couple of things I want you to do. Make certain that you do them Anne. I will be counting on you.


I went in to see the company commander today. I asked him for a ten day leave starting the 26th of November. That will give us time to get a license and a blood test and all. For your birthday, December 1, 1952, I am going to give you my life, my love forever, and everything else that I have. I have made up my mind and that’s how it’s going to be. I don’t care who disagrees.


I want you to show this to your father. I will talk to him when I get home this weekend. Next, I want you to tell my mother that I want her to call that fellow who has charge of my money. Tell her that I must have that money. I don’t care what she tells him, but I want it right away. This is important Anne because without that money we are lost. Call Mom as soon as you finish this letter. You can tell her my decision also. Next I want you to put in for a transfer to D.C. I think you will be better off with the airlines. That secretarial job has been taken.


Anne, you have got to do these things. I am depending on you. Please don’t let’ me down.

I didn’t sleep at all last nite hon. I got in at 3:30, I have been thinking of you all day. I can’t keep leaving you Anne. I can’t take it anymore. I need you, and I am going to have you. I mean it Anne. Today I was a nervous wreck. I was sick and lonely. I almost cried. I won’t be away from you Anne. I love you and if you love me we will be happy anywhere.


Hon, I can’t tell you how important it is to do what I have asked you. We have got to get started sometime so let’s get the ball rolling. Don’t worry about your folks hon, when they see how happy we are they will be happy too.


I worked pretty hard today hon, I am going to hit the sack early. I doubt if I will get much sleep. I promise to dream of you.


Don’t forget hon, the sooner we make up our minds to do what we want, the sooner we will be together. Also, hon you have got to make your father realize that we are going to get married with or without his consent. I hope for the sake of everyone involved that he will decide to stick with us and not against us.


I’ll close now dear. Good nite


All my Love Forever

Jackie

P.S. I miss the hell out of you.

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Before I Go Berserk, Hon: Tumultuous Love Letters, Comfort Women with VD, and 4 Ton Wreckers


Kathy and Christine started a 12-part series of some of their favorite Jack Cavazzi love letters.

Christine posted six of her favorites. Now, here are Kathy's.


Letter 7 in a series of 12.

8th Training Co

2nd Engineer Training Battalion ERJC

Fort Belvoir, Virginia


August 13, 1952


Dearest Anne,


Good morning hon. I will start this letter now but I know I won’t finish.


This has been a very bad week for me so far babe, I have felt lonelier this week than ever before. I don’t know why that is but I just feel as though I have to get home. I guess it is because I have nothing to look forward to. I won’t be home for three weeks you know. We transfer a week from Saturday so I won’t be home then. The following weekend we will have a long weekend again. I will get paid just before I get home. I will guarantee you I won’t be sleepy that weekend.


Anne, Darling, I miss you too much. It ruins my morale. I am getting to be an isolationist. I just want to be alone so that I can think of you. Sometimes I find myself looking, I should say staring, at your picture for a long time.


Say cutie, how about marrying a soldier boy who is crazy about you? You will, good.

All kidding aside Annie, I do love you very much and I know I will never be happy until you are mine.


We have a nite problem Mon. & Tues. nites. We have two more Thursday & Fri. No sleep this week. Between dreaming of you and getting no sleep. I walk around with my eyes closed all day.


Look Beautiful, tell your folks that we are going to get engaged three weeks from now. Because Mom will probably have the dough by then and I won’t be home before then so I can’t tell them. Ha Ha. I know just what you are thinking.


I put a part in my hair this morning. When I see you again it should look pretty good. It’s funny when you think about it.


I didn’t get to bed until about one last nite and we got up at four this morning. Plenty of sleep.


I have to get a frame for your picture, it is starting to curl up.


Annie, I want you to make sure you write every day. I am going to need plenty of letters for the next couple of weeks. You know, babe, I might fly home on that 3-day pass on Labor Day. That way we can have Friday nite also.


I don’t guess I told you that we had five AWOLs last week. I guess they couldn’t stand prosperity. One of them is still gone.


By the way hon, you know we're not supposed to hang any pictures up in the barracks, but the lieutenant said that you were so pretty that you could stay there. How about that?


Well hon, it’s late and I have a few things to do, so I’ll say nitie.


Remember hon, I love you always.

All my Love Forever

Jackie

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Before I Go Berserk, Hon: Tumultuous Love Letters, Comfort Women with VD, and 4 Ton Wreckers


Kathy and Christine started a 12-part series of some of their favorite Jack Cavazzi love letters


Each week they will post a letter for their readers and fans.


This is letter six from Christine's favorites. Then Kathy will post hers.


Christine will tell you, “Jack’s letters are not your typical sweet sheets. What newlywed tells his young wife about the prostitutes across the road? The rampant venereal disease among the soldiers? Can be hot and bothered by Anne’s love in one paragraph, and in the next lace into her like a jealous,

frustrated lover? Jack Cavazzi! And, boy, does he have a way with words. This is love letter history – and an emotional romance story – that hooked me from the get-go.”


We hope you enjoy Jack’s letters and look forward to your feedback and comments.



Letter 6 in a series of 12.


Jack writes three letters to Anne dated August 9, 1953. They certainly are a roller coaster ride of emotions!

August 9, 1953

Songwhan, Korea


My Dearest Anne,


Hello Darling. Here it is Sunday again. We have the day off and boy do I need it. That party last night was a pip. I got a little high and now my stomach is all fouled up. I don’t think I am going to drink anymore. I am not used to it and it makes me sick. It’s too easy to get into trouble around here especially when you are drunk.


Well hon, I got a letter from you today. I have to admit that I didn’t like it at all. I try to be understanding and all that Anne but I am just fed up with your excuses. I told you I would not write anymore nasty letters but you asked for it so you are going to get it. This is going to be the last time I am going to tell you. I don’t care if you go out and don’t come home until 5 o’clock in the morning, I want you to sit down and write me a letter. I want you to understand that Anne, I am not kidding one single bit. I am really glad to hear that you are getting out of the house enjoying yourself hon. I want you to have a good time. But if your social life is going to interfere with your writing to me, you had better stop it right now. I want a letter every, single day – without fail. Do you understand? If you don’t like the way I talk to you, just write and say so. I won’t tell you what to do if you don’t like it. But if you don’t do what I tell you to, you can figure on being unhappy for the rest of your life.


Look Anne, I don’t blame you too much for the way you are. You were brought up good and never forced to do anything. Well you are my wife now and you are going to change. It only takes me 15 minutes to write you a letter. Do you mean to tell me that you don’t have 15 minutes a day? Well if you don’t then hire a maid! I want mail. Another thing, you said that you only average 3 letters a week from me. Are you sure Anne? I have been back from the dentist for a month now. I haven’t missed more than two days. I have written at least 40 letters this month. I have written 2 letters a day for 5 days. How do you think I feel when I don’t get any mail? Do you think I have nothing to do but sit down and write letters? I work Baby! I have very little spare time. But I write Anne. I am very disgusted. I like to sit down and write and tell you how much I love you, not to tell you to write more often. I mean what I say Anne, every word, if I don’t start getting mail from you every day I am going to stop writing at all. I don’t mean 3 or 4 letters a week from you. I mean every day. If you think I am kidding, you just try me and find out. I can love you hard and mean it but I can be lousy too. Remember that. If this letter has made you feel bad, I’m sorry. I didn’t want to write it but you forced me to. If you have only gotten 3 letters a week from me, you had better write to the post office and find out why. I can have five guys in the tent tell you if you don’t believe that I write every day. Honest hon. Writing to you comes before anything else hon. Do you want me to be like these other guys? They go out every night and get drunk and screw these whores. They write their wives about twice a week. Do you want me to become a drunk? Do you want me to go out and get syphilis or shankus or clap like these other guys? I spend my spare time laying on my bunk thinking of you or writing to you. Remember Anne, hell on earth is just a short walk from my tent. I can tell you about a guy named Smitty. His wife didn’t write him for two weeks because she was visiting her sister. Well Smitty didn’t know that. He went out and shacked up for 3 days without coming back to the company. He contracted gonorrhea, a form of V.D. He will never be able to have children. Nice huh! Besides that when he gets out of the hospital he will get court-martialed for being AWOL. In Korea that means about 6 months in the stockade. Then he will have to make that bad time up. So altogether he will be serving an extra year. It is not hard for a man to get himself in a jam over here hon. I doubt if I would get like that but I don’t like the fact that there is even a possibility.


Anne, I love you. You know that. But I don’t think you realize how much. If you let me down it would be the end for me. I wouldn’t care about anything. I sure as hell wouldn’t be the same again. Please Anne, do I have to beg you? All right I will. Anne, I beg you, Please! Please write every day. I need mail. I can’t stand this place. I can’t stand being away from you. Don’t you understand hon, I need you.


I can’t write anymore Anne. I am all screwed up. I will write again tonight.

All my Love

Jackie



August 9, 1953

Songwhan, Korea


My Dearest Anne,


Hello Darling. What again? Yes here I am again. It is time to go to bed now so this will only be a good night letter. I just want to tell you that I wish you were here and that I need you very much tonight. I am all hot and bothered and I can only be cooled down with your love. Uh huh! Only you honey can make me get that “feeling”.


I love you very much Darling. Good night Hon. Dream of me. Love me? Much? Okay! Me too! Bye!

All my Love Always

Jackie


August 9, 1953

Songwhan, Korea


My Dearest Anne,


Hello Darling. Here I am again. Are you happy to hear from me? I imagine you are a little afraid to read this letter after the one I wrote this afternoon. Don’t worry, this one won’t be as bad. I have cooled off considerably. I am still a little angry. I made a complete ass of myself this afternoon. After I wrote that letter I sort of broke down. I cried a little I guess. The guys thought I was sick or something.


Honey, I can’t stand it when I don’t hear from you. I worry, I imagine things, all of that stuff. I am not trying to be mean when I insist that you write every day hon. It’s just that I need your letters so much. I have nothing else honey. I don’t go anywhere, I don’t do anything. I just work and come back to the barracks. Maybe I think of you too much Anne. You know, I mean the more I think of you, the more I want to be with you. I just don’t know what it is hon but I’m not happy at all. Today I actually prayed that something would happen to get me home sooner but I know that there is no hope. We are definitely staying here. I won’t be home until next May. It’s so far away hon. What am I going to do without you for 9 more months? I will be a raving maniac before it comes. I know for sure I will almost be a sex maniac. These damn whores, and these guys talking about having intercourse, and thinking about being with you. It’s enough to drive anyone nuts. Just thinking of you is enough by itself. Naturally honey, every time I think of you, I think of being in bed with you. All I can say is Wow! No kidding honey, I never dreamed it would be this bad being away from you. But believe this, and remember it, I will never give myself to any of these women, Never. I don’t care how good they look or how much they tempt me. I have a wonderful wife and I belong to her, body and soul. And heart, of course. Good night Honey.

All my Love forever

Jackie


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